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Sunday, August 27, 2006 @ 12:32 AM

THE BELOW IS MY OPINION OF A BIG FAT LIE THAT I FELL FOR:
i got an email that said tonight at 12.30am
mars will appear together with the moon
showing a phenomenon of 2 moons..
this is once in a lifetime
meaning now or never
cos the next time will be in 2287
and another sms that said the same thing but that
it will appear at 12.07am
the main thing is i din see anything
i desperately went down to see..
no moon no mars
i felt a sensation i never felt before
it was utter miserable disappointment
i never knew how much this news can hurt me..
however becos the more inticipation i have
the more disappointed i will get
but it is just that it is terrible..
in my pursuit for it with my dad..
i din bring along my hp or watch..
even now.. i still keep looking out for it..
still there's no sign of moon and mars..
maybe the last time ppl also din get to see
and let mars go out of our sight for approximately 280 years..
and ppl of 1726 din catch it.. but they will never expect that
ppl in 2006 will miss it..
maybe i got the info wrong maybe today is not even the day..
but so what?
this is my fate..
i can't see mars and i may never will
life still goes on
the earth will still keep spinning
waiting for mars to come 34.65 million miles to it
for another 280 years in 2286
i am not fated with anything..
even if you apply this logic to my real life
it's the same
the thing i least wanted to happen will happen
no matter if i want it to or not
but the things i wanted to happen might happen
even if i don't force it
and when it do there's no way i can do to stop it
so the things that i do have a reason
it is not that i don't want to seize the chance
it just that this may not be the time
maybe i wanted it
maybe he don't
maybe this is all one way
maybe this is not
maybe this is what it should be all along
maybe something should change
maybe mars din really pass us
maybe it's right outside my window at this moment in time
there's alot of 'maybe's in the world
like you say you will never what will really
happen if you don't say
but something will definitely change
if i speak out
so should i even take the chance?
honestly i dunno.. i really don't
now may not be the time
it is really not..
maybe let's give it a little time
anyway we still have a lifetime to go
how would you know maybe i will go back and tell him
after i grow old and get married?
maybe just maybe life is playing a trick on us
we are being laughed at at this point of time?
would any1 read my post until this point?
will YOU understand what i am saying?
i still have alot to say
if you want to know read on
why can't we be in the Tertiery period
the age of the early mammals?
where everything around us are not fought over
and things are less stressful
and life's a breeze and there are no constructions around
so we could see the night sky
and fall into sleep with the companion of stars everyday
where we won't cry and we can do what we want
when we want
however it is fixed that i get to come into this world
with the condition that i must live with the stress these ppl face
everyday every second
deal with heart affairs
health problems
studies
future
death
if you believe in previous life or after life
what would you want to be?
i wonder what was my previous life
when was it and what am i?
what i want to be is a star
i get to shine on everything around
and see things from above
get to see smiles on ppl faces
and laughters
but that would mean i would have to live
5000 billion of years doing the same thing
won't i be bored?
what would i want to be in my next life?
maybe a planet?
i shall be the ever 1st next to earth
to be a planet that could support life
watching how ppl gradually evolve through the millions of years
from a fish species to human..
then view their death when one day the star i am revolving around
burn out (which is after billions of years)
~
sigh what am i doing?
why am i suddenly talking science?
but isn't love similar to science?
if not they won't say that love is CHEMISTRY
sigh wonder will YOU get bored after seeing this long post?
anyway i think i am done talking..
hopefully there are ppl out there who understand how i feel
can it be YOU?
hahas.. i am MAD

if you are a star i will be the planet revolving around you.. do i really have to speak out? what i said cannot be taken back.. i don't want to regret.. will you blame me if i said it? will you blame me for bringing you into this huge mess? i dunno but i dun think i wish to know.. sigh.. life's is such an indefinite and complex place..

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Jacqueline Teo
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